I do not want to be someone I am not.
I just want to be someone I have forgot.
I have forgotten myself.
I have left my heart on a high shelf.
Struggling to reach up,
Frustrated by everything I’ve fucked up.
I want to change,
Make a fair exchange:
Craziness for
How I was before.
This is a resolution
Of which I know now other solution.
In firing range
A shirt that smells like you
Wrapped tight around someone new.
A smile saved for me
Turned on someone you don’t need.
I moved on from abuse and fear
While you gave it to those near.
You have no regrets
No reason to place bets.
You broke my heart this year
And yet your conscience is clear.
I hope you change,
Saving those in firing range,
But I have certainty
She will be hurt just like me.
Married souls
An old married couple,
Just falling in love.
After being together for years,
They are going on their first date.
They are in love
After one week.
They are happier
After every hour.
Nothing is more potent.
Nothing is more real.
They’re married by mind,
Soul,
And being,
But not in practice…
Yet.
I hate you
It’s hard to be in love
With someone you can’t have.
It’s hard to fall in love
With someone good.
I’m built to self destruct,
To rip my self apart
And burn the pieces.
I hate you
Like I hate myself
For not hating you.
Odd and a little sad
It’s hard to listen to family.
They know you too well,
Understand too easily.
Sometimes you need a stranger.
Strangers don’t understand.
They’re not bias and
They really don’t care.
A stranger can help more
Despite not knowing you.
it’s odd and a little sad
But humans are odd
And a little sad.
Independence
I don’t know how to feel and
Need time to myself.
Denied simple affection,
Every thought is poison
Penetrating deep into my veins.
Eternally reminded that
Nothing went right with you.
Deep inside I know I need this,
Even though it hurts to know I might
Never see you again.
Concentration is on anything but you because
Every part of me feels like yours.
I’m annoying
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Home
I have picked a place,
And I have called it home.
I will go my own pace
Even if I must roam.
Yeah, my life isn’t perfect
But it’s my problem
And what I’ve picked.
I’ll be solemn,
I’ll be depressed,
But don’t tell me what to do
Because I’m trying my best
And you should, too.
Making friends
Everyone says to make friends
But on them my happiness
Does not depend.
My life is a mess,
But I’m okay,
Well… I guess
That’s what one could say.
I know I should socialize
But that seems like a waste of time
In my eyes.
This place I’m in isn’t sublime,
I know that,
But my choices are slimmer,
Yes, healthier than fat
But not helping my feelings simmer.
Society isn’t fair
Sometimes life just sucks
And everything goes wrong.
Sometimes you fear the world is ending
While everyone else is having the time of their lives.
You’re left out
And depressed
And sometimes things don’t get better.
Sometimes you just have to work harder.
You have to outdo the privileged with strength
Rather than money.
You’ll get there when you’ve earned it
Because that’s how life works for you.
Just pray that someday,
The world will know you worked your ass off
For the things others were handed.
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